sometimes when something happen i really just wanna be alone..thinking how life can affect me so much..
i wish i can be with my best friends at the same time..i wish i can talk & make them listen to my problems although its only small matters..
but i don't get those chance..cause i am far away & they are too busy..
depression always made me sad..it even more sad when there is no one that understand myself & no one i can talk freely to..
here i am in LEARNING process..i did TRY my very best in doing anything..
i just wish that people can see my work, realizing that its really not that easy for me to change & maybe some day i can be as EXCELLENT as u r..
& i do hope i can just be myself without any worries..sometimes when people silence it doesn't mean they have nothing to say it just that they wanna be more tolerate and good listener or maybe they simply don't know how to start talking to..
people change..i wish i can be better..
maybe we already think we are good but here come a person that may think u r not & start to make u feel negative..
well, it maybe true u need to change for better at some point but maybe the only thing u need to do is stay strong & just coolly accept whatever they talk or see bout u..
i need to think POSITIVE & feel POSITIVE..
p/s-wish anyone that read my post here will get me in the mood back..wish u can give me some booster/advices so that i am not in stress & sad anymore..i am not gonna give up trying..its really hard to please everyone but i guess the least i could do is to make people surround me & myself happier..
thanks for reading..
Sumtimes im lazy,
i get bored i get scared,
i feel ignored i feel happy,
i get silly i choked on my own words i make wishes,
i have dreams
i still want to believe anything could happen in this world for an ordinary girl like me